shit. i feel depressed. but this doesnt make sense. i mean, my whole family is away, except kristi and i. so i should feel happy about it cause i can do almost whatever i want. maybe its because.. i dont have you to share it with. sigh. this is so fucked up.

shit, how am i suppose to live without you.
when i know that life is meaningless without you.
just come back to me..